Tuesday, April 5, 2011

I'm exhausted...

ALL THE TIME anymore. It's really starting to get annoying. For example, it is currently 10:30 am, and I could lay my head down on my desk at work RIGHT NOW and go to sleep, no problem.

I thought I had fixed the problem, when I discovered that my "Active Metabolism" vitamin that I was taking every day had the same amount of caffeine in each pill as if I was chugging 4 cans of Coke every morning. I thought, "no WONDER I'm so exhausted at 4 pm every single day, I'm crashing out of my caffeine high." So I stopped taking them, and said "I'll give myself a few days to get them out of my system and I'll be back to normal" NOPE.

I thought maybe I wasn't getting enough sleep. But I've been sleeping the same amount of time for years now, and usually do pretty well once I've had an hour or so to get adjusted to being awake again. So it could be this, and the fact that I'm getting older is just not allowing me to soldier through the way I could when I was in college. OPTION 1.

I also thought about sleep apnea, because I wake up in the middle of the night ALL THE DAMN TIME. But I don't really snore, so I don't know if that's really an option. I guess I should still label it. OPTION 2.

So of course, now I'm doing research. I'm not a hypochondriac, I don't automatically assume since I've got some of the symptoms of these illnesses that it HAS to be what's wrong with me. I just like to know my options -- because there could actually be something "wrong", instead of me just randomly being tired all the time.

UPDATE: It's now 11:15 am, and I no longer feel that I have to fight to keep my head upright and my eyes open.

Anemia symptoms - Dizziness or light-headedness (especially when standing up or with exertion), FATIGUE or lack of energy, Headaches, Problems concentrating, Shortness of breath (especially during exercise), Problems thinking, Tingling. Now I'm not exactly 100% on the "Tingling," but I know I've experienced all the other things listed off. Although I must admit that the dizziness and shortness of breath during exercise is MOST LIKELY because I haven't been exercising and I'm overweight. OPTION 3.

Hypothyroidism symptoms - Feeling TIRED, WEAK, or depressed, Dry skin and brittle nails, Not being able to stand the cold, Memory problems or having trouble thinking clearly. OPTION 4.

It could also be the aforementioned overweightness... Which I have plans of dealing with, if I can ever make it home without almost falling asleep in the car because I'm SO TIRED. We were actually supposed to start P90 last night, but it was 8:30 by the time we got home and had dinner and I said NO. OPTION 5.

I'm also going to post this as an option, even though I know it's most likely not the case: I could be pregnant. I know it's not really an option because my body has been making me think I'm pregnant for about 4 months now, and every time I start to believe it and then POOF (overshare...) there's my period. So I'm going to list it, but I'm not really considering it. OPTION 6.

So this is my current dilemma. I'm trying to figure out how to deal with it. I've been trying to let it work itself out of my system for about a month now, I think I've given it just about enough time. If I can't get it figured out on my own, I'm going to be "that person" and go to the doctor because I'm tired. I'd rather not do that.

Also, my husband is not helping. He's starting to get "irritated" at me because I never want to do ANYTHING anymore. No exercising, no housework, nothing... I just can't motivate. I also can't figure out how to explain to him and actually have him understand that I don't know why I'm so tired all the time, and that I can't help that I lay down on the couch every afternoon and sleep. I said to him this morning that we have a bunch of stuff that needs to get done around the house and he goes "I know, I've been trying to do stuff but you are always sleeping." So now I feel frustrated at myself for being tired, frustrated at him for not understanding, and guilty all at the same time.

And now I'm going to stop because this has almost crossed the line from "rant/research" to "sob story."

Moral of the story:
Being this tired all the time is abnormal for me.
I do not approve.


  1. I don't really know of a time when I am not tired. But that is because I am most likely anemic. I have never had this actually tested. But my Mom is borderline and I have all the symptoms. It still sucks even when you expect it. If it is becoming a big problem then the doctor would probably be the only one who could fix it. You should just go and see what they say.

  2. I say who cares if you're "that person", and just go see a doctor. I'm "that person" ALL the time. Which is how I got most of my stuff diagnosed, you'll never know if you don't go see the profesionals :-)